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Chris Fawthrop's avatar

I wish I had this article 10, 15 years ago. I've been working on de-conditioning myself for a long time, and no longer collapse, deny, or attack in these spaces; but so much of what you've laid out here is painful to read because of how clearly I see it now, and the associated discomfort and rage at being implicitly conditioned and helping sustain it without ever realizing.

Compounded by personal narcissistic trauma, military service, and growing up in a poor white area blinded me to the realities of things for most of my 20s, even after I left the military and went back to college I struggled to overcome the denial and grief towards what I was learning in my political science classes.

Because I had felt this wound without having a name for it, I refused to believe or see whiteness for what it was, instead I took it as a personal attack on me, an invalidation on my life struggles.

Eventually I managed to break through this, with a lot of internal work and help/perspective from some BIPOC friends. But this essay, Christian, spells everything out so clearly and in a way that I think would have helped me break my programming and reclaim meaning so much faster than the way I did.

Thank you. If I could, I'd make your essay required reading for every student in the U.S.

Hope you don't mind me sharing, it's uncomfortable to do so, but hopefully helps someone else.

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Dana López's avatar

Yes. White people with relative privilege can’t figure out why they are so unwell and alienated.. turns out that domination does not equate to human flourishing for anyone. Whiteness and white supremacy both as a political project and economy of immiseration for all.

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